Hermitness.

[drcuriosity]

I'm feeling just a bit like a social pariah at the moment. This isn't a pity post, though.

Some people whom I have in the past considered friends seem to have pretty much stopped talking to me, for some reason. There are a few people around the place who say that we really ought to catch up sometime, but won't let themselves be nailed down to actually doing so.

So. If I've inadvertently done some crap that makes you not want to associate with me, let me know. I can't fix things I don't know are broken, and if things are irrevocably broken I'd rather not keep exercising my futility. If you'd really rather not socialise with me, and are only saying things like that to be "nice", let me know. Bite the bullet, and kick that puppy. It'll be less painful for everyone in the long run. It's only the constantly reopening wounds that I can't heal.

Don't think I won't miss you, though. I may do already.

Comments

[amithrelle.livejournal.com]

i'm Guilty of that :/

never am good at keeping in touch even with my best friends..

well we SHOULD do something... but what and when, perhaps email me or give me a call 3266025 or 0211416312... Often on Thursday nights I go to Mainstreet cafe with afew friends (andrew tarr and tim .. mclennon?) for coffee, feel free to trundle along.. or give me a call/ icq about it

blah
hopefully I'm one of those people you call a friend :P
never like to neglect people I'm just a bit unreliable and therefore don't often make solid plans..

*cuddles*
Sophie

[drcuriosity]

Thursdays are one of the few times when I'm not free, unfortunately. But hey, if the game I'm running is ever postponed, I'll see.

Yes, you're certainly someone I'm happy to call a friend. *hug*

[pinky-thebrain.livejournal.com]

argh
i'm feeling guilty too :)

i keep saying we should catch up sometime, but i think you know i mean it?

nothing's broken in our relationship, i don't think :) xox

when i'm not sleeping in the next two weeks i'll be in lab 3. you should come find me :) or else after i hand in this project will text you for meet up *hugs*

[drcuriosity]

I wandered past there about midnight, actually - I guess you must have been away sleeping somewhere :-)

Yes, I know you mean it. And we actually have conversations and stuff, even if they are via IRC ;-)

*hug*

[pinky-thebrain.livejournal.com]

i was there! i left around one thirty because i really really needed a shower
hmm
my laptop is fucked and seems to think im holding down the shift key always
so typing is weird (ive got capslock on now and cant type numbers or some punctuation) grrr
time to head back into uni i feel :)

[badasstronaut.livejournal.com]

You're welcome to come and visit Bristol. It's a long swim though.

[drcuriosity]

The thought's appreciated, even if the swim wouldn't be.

[goldboy.livejournal.com]

Same goes for Sydney...

[ferw0l.livejournal.com]

Bah, I havent chatted to you in AGES!! I use msnmessanger and yahoo.. you??

[drcuriosity]

On ICQ and MSN fairly often. The latter should be visible in my userinfo.

Okay, now that *really* sticks in my craw.

[drcuriosity]

"...and through lack of contact grow away from people."

And then there are people who sever all contact with me, saying that they don't think they can trust me (knowing, or so I thought, how important a thing trust is to me, and having seen me not take sides between friends at odds in the past). Who suddenly appear in the same city as me, and want to be buddy-buddy friends again for some reason, after all this time.

That's a rather good way to make me grow away from someone. Forgive me if I haven't been so good at rebuilding the bridges you two have burned. It's hard for me to get back into a friendship after that kind of hurtful slight to my character, and with people who don't consider me trustworthy - a bit of a frailty of mine, I'm afraid. Still, trying - but please, don't expect any overnight miracles.

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[drcuriosity]

I've seen that tone of voice before. Apologies if my honesty was ill-timed - I deliberately waited until I wasn't feeling hurt and angry to post a reply, whether it seems that way or not. I know you have other important things weighing heavy on your mind right now.

Of course you can trust me? Unless you tell me you've done an about face, how am I to know that? I'm not used to people I care about cutting themselves off from me without warning, so I don't really know what the etiquette for such situations is. It would be foolish for me to make assumptions based on what I don't know. I hope you can understand my confusion about this whole situation.

Still. Going back to the main post - if you'd rather I didn't try, let me know. Otherwise, I'll do the best I can.

[shenya.livejournal.com]

I'm hopeless at the visiting people/catching up thing. I hope that I'm learning not to say silly things like you've quoted as I never get around to it. If, however, a concrete time etc. is specified then I'll get around it (provided it doesn't slip my mind entirely).

*hugs* If you do want visitors just drop a line (or post on LJ *grin*) and I'm sure something can be organised :). After all, I believe I know where you live (just across from your parents, yes?).

[drcuriosity]

Yep, just up on the corner. *hugs*
Not sure if work's about to get stupidly busy or not. We shall see.

[shenya.livejournal.com]

Okay. I'll be reading your journal anyway :). I might even be a good little girl and try to get to more parties, that way I might manage to be at one where I see you when I'm not just about to leave or am distracted :(.

[littlel.livejournal.com]

I am sorry if I did say I would catch up then didn't, I seem to have a bad habit of not following up on it.

I would have loved to have spent more time with you.

[drcuriosity]

I'm sorry I was too ill to attend your going-away. *hug*

Universe hatey

[st-innocent.livejournal.com]

On the flip side, every time I try to contact you the universe hatey kicks in. And I DO try. Just come over one afternoon and bang on my window until I wake up. Or call me and arrange an evening thing?

But gosh, you know your social life has taken a turn for the worse when my MOTHER invites you over...

Re: Universe hatey

[drcuriosity]

Might take you up on that. Got the SMS, too. We'll see what we can do.

[p-firesinger.livejournal.com]

Oop. Sorry there.
*guilty*

I have not been on #wicca for ages. I found the few friends I had there were worth coming and seeing, but the folks who still hold a grudge for me trying my darndest to make the channel marginally civil just won't let it be. I doubt I will be spending any more time there actually.

Trust is not an issue, just circles. The ones I am in right now are taking time from the ones I used to be in. Be well.

If you want to chat....firesinger at pagans dot org....

[drcuriosity]

'Tis a pity that some assholes make the channel something to be endured rather than enjoyed so often. Still, glad to have you on LJ so we can keep in touch :-)

The gesture's appreciated - many thanks.

[dvixen.livejournal.com]

Oh all right.

I never catchupwith anyone, I ignore everyone. There we have it. ;)

Course, I only pay attention to the lives of those I deem worthy of interest.

(btw got your email, all is right with the world.)

[dvixen.livejournal.com]

Actually it's mostly because I don't have much to say these days. *shrug*

[drcuriosity]

Good, glad you got it - I wasn't sure the address was still current. Thanks for letting me know :-)

[rtmiss.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I confess. I'm not being a good friend to anyone really at the moment. I'm feeling miserable. I don't think I'm good company. And I'm INCREDIBLY unstable. I don't like freaking out in public.

I still loves ya.

[drcuriosity]

Good. You're also loveded :-)
I should be around fairly often to talk to by the usual online outlets, if need be.
*hugs*

[demented-angel.livejournal.com]

*hugs* miss you! I have just got back online, once again. I think I am staying here for good so should be able to talk whenever were both around. I hope besides this everything is going well for you hun! All ya gots to do is say hello:)

[drcuriosity]

Glad to see you about the place. Hopefully we'll be able to catch up properly sometime soon. *hugses*

hmmmmm

[princeskittykat.livejournal.com]

Well have you sorted out you email gremlins yet?

Re: hmmmmm

[drcuriosity]

Um, as far as I'm aware, I have.

[kest]

Still think you're cool. Still in another country.

[drcuriosity]

Aye, that Pacific Ocean thing gets in the way a bit sometimes, doesn't it?
You're cool, too. I'm glad to have you around the place, even if the place is physically far away.

[catcom.livejournal.com]

I also still like you from across this ocean thingy.